mylife.mystory

Friday, January 07, 2005 Y

1:34 PM

i learnt sth..happy times do not last at all.halx.y mux shooo mani things happen dex?? i realli feel lky givin up all 3..but i found out tt i'm devoted to all 3..halx..but cant cope..i realli neda let go at least 1..halx..i felt tt i do belong to (A) coxe i dun feel felt out at all n besides..i'm happy here now..But as fer (B) i dun felt welcom at all..i really hate (B)..but come to responsibility..i cant let go..As fer (C)..i oso dunno wad to say..i'm sad of course lahx..but i jux really hapi d way things r now..

halx^2..all i wana do now ish onli to study nia..nth else. i realli hapy tt i got such nice kors..willing to help mi..thanx ya? halx..i oso dunno wad to say..i've made up my mind..i come to dunman is not to only serve d sch..i came to study..shoooo nth comes b4 my studies in sch. n tts final..abt takin over nxt yr or not..i shall c my mid yr results..if its no gud dan...i have to say sorie to d unit...but i huess dey dun need mi fer d moment..dey onli look fer me when dey need help...........

today got cca recuitment..halx..i duno lahx..salha stressed mi tt we mux at least get into footdrill com...n no commander is needed if we enter top 8...halx..i can see tt salha wana built d unit up...but i cant do it alone..if i put all my time n effort...d others dun even wanna...dan wads d point???? i oso dunno...mi now mixed feeling!!!

d worst thing happened today ish tt dey say wad...galvin lky mi ahx?? hahax..mux b jkin. tianx ahx..i will realli let (C) go onli if someone special enter my life..jux hope tt time can heal my pain..halx..somehow i felt tt theres...rain on my new beginning..tmr stiu got training...wonder wad will d trainin b lky tmr..halx..i stiu put hope but d rest realli discourage mi to do so..halx..juz wait n see lox..btw tmr i got eng test in d evening..halx..now onli studies n leadership stuffs occupy mi...i realli need a break..i dun even have enough slp..cant get into bed lately oso..dunno whyee...halx..how i wish tt i have d keys to open all doors in my life..but i dun even have a single key at all...nowadays i dun even have much time to online or update blog ler..halx..

sorie i jux broke one of mt resolution in 2005...

halx..now i jux wish tt i could happily spend my birthday without anything on my mind..