Monday, February 28, 2005 Y
2:24 PM
hMmM..
yUpx..todaY went to study.
thanx fer d sweet memoriex..
i trust u neo wad u r doin
yUpx..
hMmM..
some ppl shud learn to
shut their mouth up
coxe dey didnt achieve anything..
n dere to discourage my cadets?
u made us black listed in hq
fer not joinin foot drill com last yr
yea..
hmMm..
all i cud do ish to think of d
happie momeries to keep
my self happie all d time
laughin it all out ish gud..
actualli go plae badminton dex.
den in d end nv go play.
saddening..
-----* c h [a] r *-------
_i've TrusT in U_
Sunday, February 27, 2005 Y
2:34 PM
LoH~!!
Guess wad...?
DMN RCY got 3rd in
EAST DISTRICT~!!
LoLx.
it was beyond expectation.
yUpx.
oNe sTep aT a TiMe.
saW So Mani FarMiLaR FacEs
engkee sir, edwin sir, eusoff sir
cuiying mdm, sherlyn mdm
yUpx..
saw so mani ppl join hq.
shud i join hq?
salha ask mi to go join..
but i dunno lehhs
bTw..
wads wrong with being ...
AMBITIOUS..??
shud i take over agn?
hmMm..
y mux u all dun let me go?
i wan passing out ceremony..
i dunn wan to think things
tt dun bother me lerhs.
yUpx..
i wanna be STRESS-FREE~!!!
hehex.yUpx.
once its over..
jux let it go..
dun wanna think abt it anymore.
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_aMbiTioUs Me_
Friday, February 25, 2005 Y
8:55 PM
2nd posT toDaY
n0w ish onLi 4.42am
yUpx..
n penny ish creatin
CLOWNIEX..
it means clown lahhs.
yUpx..she very doTx dex.
go ard drwain ppl's face
to become clowniex
Sianx~
d whoLe seeMs to neo abt it
i oso dunno h0w dey neo lahhs~
halx..
today investiture.
tmr foot drill com..
sianx.LoLx.
whether will happie family
break up..
ish up to everyone here.
some alr dun give a damn.
lky tix how to maintain?
somebody do sth..
yUpX..=)
Gud MoRninG aGn~!
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_i"ll nV waLk aWaY_
_i'm not 100% committed_
7:52 PM
aRLo~
n0w ish 3.46am in d morning
n0w needa study both
emaths n chinese..
yUpx.
thanx peNNy FeR waKin
Me uPp..yUpx.
ToDaY gorT InVesTiTuRe~!
HeHeX..=)
didnt neo i can wake up
fer 3 days so early..
i guess i'm numb liaox..
yUpx.bYebYe Takke CaRRe~!
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_i NeO ThlnGs u DonT_
Thursday, February 24, 2005 Y
9:02 AM
LoLx~!
today ish d first emaths lesson
where everyone cud sit dere
n laugh d whole lesson.
hahax.
emaths remedial became
match-making sessions.LoLx~
hMmM..
MaNi ppL in My kLass
changed alot
even dos u least expect
oso changed.
i'm not used to all these.
i dun hide it..
i hate it soo much~!
halx.
i found out that i shud laugh
everything out instead of being sad
i shud think of d positive side.
yUpx.=)
Lorhs~!
investiture coming liaox.yUpx.
hehex.=)
footdrill com coming lerhs..halx~
dun feel lky goin at all..halx.
nVm.hahax.
bLeaHs.=P
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_haVe i oVeRcoMe iT?_
Wednesday, February 23, 2005 Y
12:07 PM
2nd entry todaY..
i made it broken.
its all my fault.
i m tryin put back all the
broken pieces back 2gether agn
tryin my best nort to be
hurt by d broken pieces.
i will do anything to get
eveything back 2gether agn
buT if ppl r running away
den i can do nth to it.
u jux have to face wad u've done
its no ones fault.
every single one of us
is to be blamed.
by runnin away wont do us any gd
d longer u dragg
d more painful it is..
we r put through such tests
in our friendship.
i finally c d true colours of my
surrounding friends..
everyone is sick n tired
of everthing..
even ppl nort involved
feels it too.
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_aT d LoSin End_
10:14 AM
Eh-O~!
yUpx.
TodaY c0me to sch actually
happie happie dex..
den sTh hapPeNed.
den my mood gone liaox.
when my mood gone liaox.
den i neo how to do all my
amaths questn lehhs.
not bad horx?
LoLx.
i almost drop a tear
thanx to alan .
kept askin me wad happen
i felt so sick n tired abt such things
how i wish everyone could jux
sit down n settle evey single
small problem~
coxe i realli have to sttudy
without such stupid things~!
yUpx. no offence ahhs.
i think tt we shud not dragg.
jux tell each other wad
u've gonna say..
den mayb we might decide on
whether to walk seperate ways
or not to..
yUpx.
i find tt some ppl shud
shut the hell up
when things dun bother them.
u dun hav d right to havve a say
n dun act as if u neo eveything~!
i felt tt i'm changing to another person
i've gonna stop it from happening.
yUpx.
shall ignore tix kinda ppl.
i've got so mani question marks.
i dun even neo wads happenin
SoRrie fer all d probs tt i've caused.
i'm sick n tired of..
friends.FamiLy.
sTudies. CouNciL.
ReDcRoss. n MYSELF.
i'm tryin too hard to hang on..
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_MoMeRieS oF d PasT_
Tuesday, February 22, 2005 Y
12:53 PM
ToDaY gort investiture rehearsal.
yUpx. i was so sad.
didnt neo how to face..
poo, fengling n esp. jiaYee.
i'm realli sorrie.
n i dunno y i say sorrie oso.
halx. i needa cry fer everything.
any shoulder to lend??
aiYa.i dun feel lky doin anything
coxe i'm feelin so tired
when i reach home
today reach home at 7.30 lorhs
so damn late.
halx.
failed both phy n chem.halx.
needa catch uP lerhs.
any tutor out dere?
mux b FOC de h0rx~!
yUpx. jux to tell u guys tt..
shawn poh ish mine~!
he ish my husband~!!
LoLx. hahax.doTx.
today got both rc n sc.
halx. she lky forcin mi to
chose eithere one.
i'm so sorrie .
i will depend on which is
more important..
depend on situation.
even salha can allow.
y not u?? i dun understand.
i've alot of question mark.
is dere anyone willingly to
ans all my doubts?
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_zuo wo de fang xiang~!!_
Monday, February 21, 2005 Y
1:14 PM
arLo..
Today we go plae badminton
go to uLu uLu de place.
at first 3 of us.
den pop came in n join us.
woa~! he got so mani
hua zhao dex.doTx.
yUpx.LoVe BadMinToN.
halx.den atrina call..
told mi abt rc.
shud i put rc b4 sc
or sc b4 rc??
i kept missin the ball
after tt call. sobx.
felt lky cryin yet no tears at all.
yUpx.tanyiwen u r rite
smart gal.
as long as we neo can liaox.
yUpx.den we go eat dinner.
didnt felt eatin.
felt lky vomitin.
halx.
we still send tanyiwen home.
tanyiwen scared to b alone
at home.doTx.LoLx.
tt coconut tree will fall down so0n.
it wont b as strong as the
other tree u neo?
now need to go do hw lerhs.
bYebYe n TaKe CaRRe~!.=).
LoVe u aLL~!
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_nV abLe To ForGeT_
5:25 AM
i dun mind being d one
losing out in d end.
I'm serlous.
i jux dunno.
regrette tellin u everything
made u sho confused.
halx. dun think abt it.
jux set ur mind straight.
pLs..
Lky tix ish eNuFF.
pOp.dun worrie lahhs.
i dun lky u lahhs.
u dun need scared of
misunderstanding liaox.=)
HmMm..
How ish Happie FamiLy now?
Tanyiwen ask mi a gd ques.
will happie family break up?
even i dun even
have the confidence
to say we wont break.
i jux hope nTh wiLL happen.
but after so many
things happened.
i dun even neo myself lerhs.
i jux haTe to do things so secretive.
y mux we be afraid of wad ppl
think of feel?
tts their business.
i'm sick n tired of such things.
i'm so tired ytd tt i slp immediately.
halx.
its also nort easy to build
trust,
faith,
hope
in anyone else..
i was sho freakingly pissed ytd
i oso dunno y i hate u.
n dun ask mi y i hate him.
actually...
ignorance ish a bliss at times.
now i'm tryin to find things
to occupy my mind
ltr go play badminton
yupx.
-------* c h [a] r *-------
_LeTs puT oN a PerFecT sMiLe_
Saturday, February 19, 2005 Y
1:15 PM
ish today a ordinary day..?
LoLx.i have no idea oso.
hmmm..YuPx.
TmR waNa c hlde n seeK.
anYoNe waNa Go?
i stiu dun understand
y u wud lky to run
d unit in such way?
its up to u.
i dun wish to bother any more
its ur chose.ur decision.
n its ur unit.freak u~!
Come on cadets.
u all r doin well.
jux endure fer 1 more week~!
jla y0u~!!
heyy.pop.
den i shall buy a mse pad fer u.
i tot u got lerhs?
dotx lehs u. hahax.
at first no mse.
now no mse pad..
nxt no wad..??
TodaY i felt lky cryin.
no idea y.
but no tears came down.
dun think i cann slp tonite.
halx.
i'm so damn freakingly tired.
tmr still got investiture rehearsal.
sometimes i think tt we jux leave
things alone n..
everything will b alrite.
i rilli miss d past..
-------*c h [a] r *-------
Friday, February 18, 2005 Y
11:11 AM
u r a cadet.
n u r in rc trainin time.
u 2 jux start shoutin at each other
n i dun even neo wad d hell
is goin on.
one jux push d table
n walk off wid d word...
fuck...
who m i?
i gave dem 15 pumpings fer
wad dey did.
dey desreve more den dat
u told mi tt u wanna b VC
n u have such attitude.
tian ahhs.
hmmm..today
tanyiwen broke tt blue water bottle
sobx...='(
halx..
today in klass everyone attitude
dunno y oso.i question-mark.
i slp in klass agn..i'm so tired
i'm tired of wad i'm doin.
tired of every single thing
how i wish my kai xin guo ish here.
i rilli love d past.
everything jux SUX now.
sianx~
i tmr stil gort training til 6.30
dun feel lky goin at all
halx..all my mood jux go lky tix.
i rilli need my guitar now..
tts all fer today.
sobx..today isn't my day~
i shall laugh it all out.
heyy KAI XIN GUO~!
come report to mi now.
i rilli need u~!!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005 Y
11:44 AM
hMmM..
Todae annonunce exco board.
Yupx.sF i no moRe director liaox.
SoBx..
But i GorT ESP director.
hahax..some uLu dept.
nvm shall do my BesT~!
HAha.PoP geTin WaTeR bottLe
FeR Me??
COMFIRM 4geT Dex..
WaNa BeT..DoTx.
YuPx.
ToDaY gorT 1st meeTinG.
KinDa BoRinG LorHs.
i GuEss i sHaLL 4geT abT
d PasT. YuPx.=)
YuPx.hoPe i CaN.
NorT use to not msgin u. =(
Yea~! my hp bill new month
HeHex.TmR gorT G.L
HaVen Pay YeT. =X
OoPps..gonna fine $5 agn.
HaVen eVeN go pLay
FeR a LonG TiMe LiaOx.
Den yTd..
d nPcc ppl came
den alan's toe nail lky came off.
tts freakingly disgustin lorhs~! =X
*vomit*
i'm havin fLu once agn.
Tian aHx.
Investiture comin..
footdrill com coming..
i wana watch.con-sten-tine~!!
I somehow felt tt
we r rilli driftin apart..
wud it b gud or bad..?
tanyiwen.
u rilli not givin me faluse hope.?
Monday, February 14, 2005 Y
2:05 PM
POOVAN
FIRDUAS
SK
woa~! u all neo u all sabo mi mahhs?
tianx ahx.
u all sabo until i dunno
where to hide my face ahx
btw..mi first time drinkin nia.
n my face ish already pink lorhs
LoLx.
n i go toilet ish not to vomit
and POO i not pregnate horx
dun anyhow say say
hahax..
i dunno whyee my mood liddat
tt day..sorie.
LoLx.tmr ish...
VALENTINES DAY~!
hahax.sobx.
still gort training.
dun feel lky goin but no choice.
12:02 PM
LoLx.didnt neo tt u got secret dex.
Today mi go temple in d morning
Woa~! got sooo mani ppl
So damn freakin hot Lorhs.
Los..TmR Valentine day lerhs
Got no DaTe.
SaDdeNinG sia.SoBx.
HeHex.
Nvm
mi ish happie go lucky dex.
Bleahx =P
Heyy.PoP.
i love my blog okies.
although no meaning to mi.
but it jux rox to mi
beta dan u..
u dun haf at all.
LoLx.bLeahX =P
Sunday, February 13, 2005 Y
1:26 PM
For 11 feb
Heyy. PoP didnt expect u to tagg mi
we had steamboat at chin's house
didnt feel lky eatin
coxe i felt lky vomitin
i jux cant put put any smile
very tired of it
i rilli felt lky givin up
although its onli 1 day
coxe she deserve u more
dan i do
For 12 Feb
Everyone tell different things
who shud i believe?
or all of them r tellin lies?
y mux hide things from me?
sho much things i wud lky to post
but...i jux cant..
Friday, February 11, 2005 Y
1:22 AM
everything seems kinda sudden
seems weird too. =)
guess tt its common.
Today's another day of visitin.
go all d way to jurong
seein unfarmiliar faces
so bored dere.
lucky got tanyiwen n sorrie
sian tmr got sch.
dun feel lky goin
changed new blogg layout
see until mi cock eye liaox
ltr stiu got conferencing..hehex.
Monday, February 07, 2005 Y
11:03 AM
eVeryThlng ish back to noRmaL liaox.
he's my kor once agn. lolx.
i guess mayb its time fer mi to give up..
or shud i continue.
i shall make my FINAL decision by tix friday(10/02)..
i'm really puzzled..halx..lolx.
mi over d moon now.lolx.
i didnt expect him to lky mi back coxe i'm jux happy
in the way we are now.
n nth's gonna change my mind wid tt..
btw chin. its nort tt i dun wanna believe in 7th sense.
is i cant find any reason to make mi believe.
how i wish i could believe it too..
coxe its sho nice to think abt it.
you say tt u can answer all my whys.
i'm waiting fer my answers lorhs.
Arrrrhhhhzzzzzz.......
i realli regrette..
cutting d movie tickets
throwin d wrapper
giving away d photo n d bus ticket
if u all still have it den PLEASE return mi...
Can comeone scold mi?
can someone wake mi up?
can soeone knock some sense into mi?
can anyone give mi back d things tt r gone?
i guess nort...
AnYone wants mi fer valentines dae??
lolx..i more week to valentine day liaox.
guess gonna spent it wid frens agn liaox.
but i jux hate ppl to take others fer granted~!!
4:24 AM
"My Happy Ending"
So much for my happy ending
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You've got your dumb friendsI know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
So much for my happy ending
i waited fer ur msg til 4am..i gave up in waitin cox i have to force myself to slp so i can study d nxt day..i skipped dinner n i took medicine wid an empty stomach.hungry n tired yet cannot slp at all..den i slp onli fer 3 hrs.halx. slpt in d living room.n i didnt even recieve ur mail..neo tt u slp late last night too..sho. do take care of urself..
Sunday, February 06, 2005 Y
4:49 PM
its lky early in d morning 12.35am..dotx..n i still cannot slp..lolx..hmm..today we went shoppin fer cards den go plae bball..dotx..i tyco sia~! mi close eyes den d ball oso can enter de los.lolx. sadz lahx..ytd kana disown by 2 kors..lolx. halx..one is dun wish but no choice d other one i dunno wad the hell is goin on.dotx. mi lky so hugry..haben eat dinner n took medicine without eatin.lolx. dan cannot slp worst still siax.todae got no chance to break down. dun wish to let ppl neo.hmmm? is there any way tt can make mi slp? sianx..things reali turned out fer d bad lerhx.. halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx. i cut the movie tickets..frens helped mi to throw d sweet wrapper n bus ticket...halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx.halx..nvm larhs.. everyone was so damn freaklying pissed today lorhs..halx.halx..chin was puttin up fake smiles n yiwen oso..halx..it hurt mi to c my close frens lky tix. i try to vent anger by any means but it cant b done.. halx. nvm den. my blog is d onli way i can vent anything out of mi..dotx..time pass so slow..i write so long den now onli 12.45am..sianx..dotx..
its not tt i dun wanna believe in 7th sense but things rilli turn out fer the bad liaox. shoo dun blame mi fer nort believing...............................................................................tonight will be d longest day of my life...
1:44 AM
why mux people lie?
why mux people backstab?
why mux people put up a happy face when dey're not happy?
why mux people fall in love?
why mux people be force do things dey don wish to do?
why mux people keep things from one another?
why mux people be so demanding?
why mux people be so heartless?
why mux people dream?
why mux people put in so much effort yet nth gained?
why are there reasons to be unexplained?
why mux people think tt dey're perfect?
why do people come n go?
why do pepople make sacrifices?
why dont i have d confidence?
why do people look on d bright side?
why do i look on the dartk side?
why do i make believe?
why people fight?
why cant people sit down n nsettle all problems instead of using violent?
why cant people control their temper?
why cant people forgive n forget?
why can people forget about the past?
why mux people go sad?
why do i love him when i dun even want to?
why would i fall in love?
why m i d last to neo?
why mux i keep hanging on when i'm damn tired?
why do people act as id they rilli cared?
Saturday, February 05, 2005 Y
1:21 PM
some ppl shud rilli watch their bloody attitude~! dun make mi embrass u. n i mean it.
today i sick sick.halx..so tired now~
bTw..i uploaded new song.hehex. everytime by britney spears..hehex..btw...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!
.GONG XI FA CAI.
.HONG BAO NA LAI.
Thursday, February 03, 2005 Y
3:31 PM
sianx.todae got guitar lesson los.b4 tt got grp of ppl lky to sabo ppl. dey wanna sabo den sabo los.i can do nth oso. halx.sianx. den got guitar lesson. so boring we're stucked in tt stupid song..lame lorx..teach dunno how long liaox..ohwell. i learnt more than words de first 3 chords.hehex..lolx. i felt got cheng jiu gan..hehex.lolx. sianx lahx..today mood dunno y no gud dan pick up tt guitar n play..now lky almost everynight got conferencing liaox..i think tt firduas addicted to it liaox..hahax tt monkey.. i think i shud learn how to not hit ppl liaox..hehex,,dunno y jux felt tt i shud not anyhow hit guiys..=X lolx..sianx..
dan todae tt mushroom change my sitting position dan i sit the 3rd last row..sianx lahx..hahax.. dan tt alicia keep laming mi in klass los..hahax..dunno wad valentine dex..lolx..she rilli can lame mi during lesson time sia.. halx..dan todae kana a bit of lecture by salha..sianx.i wan quit oso cannot los. sianx..sho i shud jux put in my best bahx..btw i shud oso learnt how to kan kai lerhx..lolx..sianx..i todae dun feel lky slpin lerhx..dunno y oso..hahax..too energentic?? lolx..investiture coming liaox..tt i tio floor department..sianx.
Woa~ let mi tell u a JOKE told by MR CHUA..imagine u r in a pub.. guyB sat beside guyA n say..i slpt wid ur mom last night..dan guyA said..u r drunk lets go home! LOLx..the whole klass was laughin not at his joke but at his lame-ness..OMG..tianx ahx..lolx.
No Way Out
everywhere i turn i hurt i hurt someone
buts theres nth i could say to change the things i've done
i do anything within my power
i'll give eveything i've got
but the path i see is hidden from mi now
no hurt no future
