mylife.mystory

Wednesday, August 31, 2005 Y

10:16 PM

I learning canon in D for my guitar lesson now.*wow*unbelieveable! its so fun, todays lesson was the one and only lesson that i actually paid full attention.*yuPx*
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Today's just another fine day, i'm just 100% pure crazy nowdays. *hmmmm* who knows why i'm like that, god knows. Is it that when i'm crazy you people will think that i'm sad or something. *haha* i noticed this trend. Anyway i'm 101% perfectly fine and alright. Today we had singing lesson in class, me, poo, ting, alan, is were practically singing during recess. and we were singing nursery rhymes.*omg* so childish. lately i act as if i'm a superstar, guess i loved singing too much.
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Anyaway, certain things no need everyone say we all also will know want. *wide smile* going to school to study tomorrow. i'm dying to play pooL. hand itichy. The aces day was dump. Was i very active? nehneh poo say i active. *lol* good what. *lalalala*

Tuesday, August 30, 2005 Y

10:39 PM

What a tiring day, all we did was to study, study and study! *goshh* Oh-well, a fews more weeks, all i have to do is just to tolerate.Yes! thats the spirit! I did something embrassing today, i was giving the report books and i gave mine to farhi and i took his. The incident was so embrassing.*tiann ahhs* results was very dissappointing was i had been in top 10 since sec 1. Broke my record.Now, worst. yun n pearl, u 2 tc okk?? =] studies come first.
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Guess what i managed to get the highest level for both my reliability and support question.*yippie* an achievement!

Monday, August 29, 2005 Y

7:35 PM

Today was rather an interesting day. Farhi, that retarded kukoo boy, kept laughing behind. *goshh* he really had a nut lose in his head.*alamak* AND that poovan and islin can happily 'suan' me down there.*kns lorhs* anyway, lesson was rather fun. Went to tamp and 'makan' Ljs, with wen, poo, ting n shiya. Guess what! Me and ting found that mirage perfume, and we saw it again for the second time, and was so interested in it, so the five of us bought it.
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From now on there will be night study from 4pm to 9pm.*goshh* FIVE hours of lesson.*pulling hair*. results was rather depressing.*haiix*. PearLene! u Take care okks?
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What's the meaning of 'trust'?

Sunday, August 28, 2005 Y

10:37 PM

i've regrette for what i've done.noyvh.i've got myself to blame.
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God will wash away my sins.

9:12 PM

I used to stand so tall. Now, i can't breathe. I can't sleep. It is enough to bleed already. Cut my hair, new beginning. Dy is gonna give me the spooky show post card. Thanx alan anyway, even though he doesn't read my blog.
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The more you expect from your studies, the harder you're pushing yourself. Relax okie? Slow and steady wins the race. Don't panic ok? You Take care`
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happy birthday my dear brother`!!! =]

Saturday, August 27, 2005 Y

9:16 PM

i'm being short tempered lately. I think it was what had heppen recently. This i only told two people. I neo its bad to "huai yi" my friend, but this is what i see and hear. I've got no choice but to say such things.Too bad. As long as one who lost my trust would never think of me trusting them ever again. Even if i do, its just on the surface. Ns are coming, trying to get myself prepared though i did badly for my prelims. I'll continue and i will even work harder. Learnt how to give and take.Is it enough to bleed?
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Stay happy always`! counting my starrs. =0) <- big nose face.*LoL*

8:50 PM

The SPOOKY SHOW was an exciting one.Went with alicia, dy and alan. You can see 'ghost' around walking.*creepy* It was full of mysteries! I actually pray for the first time, opening my heart to Jesus and becoming a shild of Jesus. The show as abit cray and unbelievable! It seem so 'unreal' but you've got to believe it. Being christain teaches us "da dao li", but realli have to "san si" before converting. The best was that the last performance. They actually called upon the ghost!!!!!!!!! that was real damn freaking spooky`!!!! He even melt a heavy duty spoon. You just got to believe such things.
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I saw pop at tampinese, was kind of shock, unexpected.He was wearing two layer of clothes.weirdo.*oops* ALICIA~! don't you worry, its a good sign ok? Look on the bright side ok? Had a one hour walk, that was fun. Didn't managed to collect my camera because that 'nehneh' canon building only work during office hours. saddening.dy was kinda funny, he's very open and friendly.He heard me pray.*so pai seh*
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i've learnt how to give and take.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005 Y

10:26 PM

Its been a few days since i last blog. In life, people do come and go, and the best part is that i've learnt how to let go of certain things, because it's not worth cherishing. People also change, so i believe that i shouldn't do anything also, let them do what they want and they will taste their own medicine one day, by then they will truely understand what they had gone wrong. It would be applied to me as well. God won't not let 'bad' people off so easily, it's just the matter of time when god will clear his 'debts' with them. The chiristian's believed that if one let goes of its past, noone can harm him/her, this i find it so god damn true for me. I would get hurt easily if i hold on to the past, so i decided to let certain things go.
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lately i wasn't able to concentrate on certain things. My stuides is an example, i didn't concenrate well enough. I didn't managed to hit a shuttlecock when i was playing badminton ealier this morning! *sigh* i'm so out of place. I felt myself tarpped in one corner. I still need to find whats blocking me from such________(don't klnow what word to use).
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today we had 2 hours of english. Lots of things happened. Poovan actually told me that i should be happy of some thing. Which is about ah-boii's reaction towards certain things. I was 'playing' with Quek in class, then ms cheong scold him when i'm supposed to be the one getting the scolding, BUT it was alright for quek, because, the whole class make fun of him like this. Poovam shouted, later somebody jealous! Then syahidah told me that i should be happy due to his reaction, but i wasn't sure on what was his reaction. There was another incident whereby ah-boii and me bursting out into laughter without knowing why we are laughing for.*oh my god* I feel so weird.
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good night and take care everyone`! i hope things would change for the better`!

Monday, August 22, 2005 Y

7:46 PM

ignorance is a bliss

noone can hurt miie if i let dah past down.

I felt so much better after hearing what she say. Thanx to alicia n ting. You both got your own point. Alicia: lady luck will be ours soon`!!

6:56 PM

special thanx to

alicia

4:59 PM

Decided to change address, felt uncomfortable with that. I guess that i'm just tired of such things. Noone understand the feeling of going to lose a kin. The feeling of losing a friend when you think you did nothing. The feeling of being lost and noone's there to help you. Have you all ever gone through all these feelings yet? From what i see, all of you have many friends, you all can afford to 'change clothes everyday' i just don't understand how you people do that. Just keep everthing to myself, and get accused if i don't even know. Oh well, i only have myself to blame for not explaining. I hate explaining myself out.
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Certain things people stand firm on their rights, yes they have all the right in the world to do that BUT there's just something missing. This is just being one sided. If you were to be a person who can't even stand firm on your rights then don't use the word INDECISIVE on me. you don't even have the right to do that because you don't too. Anyway, you are a leader, as what you've always said, you should jolly well know all these stuffs better than me.
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I've lost trust in everyone. you people made me do such things. i need to learn how to be dependent on myself.

4:47 PM

SHIFTed

to some where i'm more comfortable with.

buh bye chaplin-me.blogspot.com

4:30 PM

Getting back my prelim test papers one after another. My eyes filled with tears, I didn't know why I would have achieved such atrocious results. The results are unexpected and dissapointed, I did not know where I went wrong. Guess this is a BIG lesson to learn for me.
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What are friends for? Everyone should know what are friends for, but have you all ever wondered if u all meet an expectations of being a friend? If you were to ask me if i have a best/true friend, I would say NO. Yes i have a lot of friends,but they don't play an important role in my life. They don't encourage me in my studies. They don't understand what i'm thinking. AND worst of all, they don't even understand me. Today, i found out that noone understood why I brokedown in class. *sigh*I guess that i'm better off alone. Just that i'm short of the laughter we used to have and feelings to share. Thats all. What for tell people your secrets and they do something which betrayed you.*LOL*do you call these people friend?
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The higher i go the easier i'll fall. Since i've fall this time. I stand up and face reality. I'm sure that i can achieve my dreams and hold it tight. I would never want to fall again because its too painful to go through. I hurt badly from this fall, and i will countinue to build up my confidence, I'll never let the past destroy what comes tomorrow. I'll learn my mistake and improve myself. you'll all see a new charlene. This i asure you.
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i would like to be alone. Thanx for those who made concern.

Sunday, August 21, 2005 Y

9:02 PM

hello~
here to blogg`!!!!
hahax.
hmmmm. ytd went to spore vch
wid poo.ting.ch.n.chin.
yuPx. kinda funn lahhs.
BUT..haiix. dunno wad to sat lahhs.
anyway thanx fer dah concern ch. yuPx.
took lots of stupid picS lahhs.
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den gort this kid behind me.
played wid my haiir.
my haiir too nice lahhs.
*thick skin*
den dat small little kid verii cute.
dat kid is ch's kawan. LoL

dats miee n ch.yars.

miee n nehneh poo at dah
duriann dere.
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ps. other foto nort nicee.hahax.
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den went makan dinner wid ch n chin.
yars. den suddenlii rainn sia. hahax. LoLx.
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poovan. u nepo u step my leg a thousand times??
pain lehhs. kns lorhs.
humPx. LoL
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yao di ye um sai ngo gong lei
duo hai seng ge la.
ngo ji duo lei um zong yi hui.
duo um sai kum ge ma.
at least mo me ye fa shan.=]
ngo aio leii.`!
`
today went shopping.haha.
bought a skirt n 2 blouse. hahax.
hmmm. satisfied lehhs.
`
anyway. i neo wad i wan lerhs.
hahax. i'm so happie lorhs.
finalli realise it lohhs.
huang ran da wu`!
hmmm. yuPx.
i lovee all my frens kkx.??
`
after my Os maths
i wanna learn singing n paino.
yuPx.hehex.

Thursday, August 18, 2005 Y

9:38 PM

this ish wad i've done todae. hehex.

dats miee.=]

miee n ting. self shot worhs.

nort bad ting.*wiink*

miee n nehneh poo.

censored`!!

miee n nehneh.black.black

dats miee.

miee agn`!

can see me??

i'm at da back.

my mp3 got earing de. hehex.

9:23 PM

decided to change blogg once agn.
coxe maths is realli borinn lorhs.haiix.
how to chose liddat. i confused le lahhs.

5:55 PM

went aiirport agn.
wid dah samesame ppl.poo n ting lohhs.
didnt realli studii
coxe nono mood everyone.
hahax. den bought da keychaiin lorhs.
hmmm. nehneh. ps ahhs.
haha. cant help it.
got nono pics today.
waiting fer nehneh to send me first.
thanx nehneh. =] *wide smile*
den ting lamed miee today.
every where oso take pic. hahahax.
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my mum send dah cam fer repaiir lerhs.
yippiee. hehex.
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haiix. saded lorhs.
emaths p2 nort i highest AND highest is
onlii 35/4o n cher sae ii got 30 n above.
saded lahhs.
aimed fer full marks n didnt got it.
dissappointed.`
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fer fnn. i didnt studii much
coxe ii concentrated too much on chem lerhs.
haiix.
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i wanna get dat loop dunno wad hat. haha.
nehneh wads dat ahhs? i fergot da name lerhs.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005 Y

5:40 PM

i saw dat girl wid a starr.
nice lehhs.BUT its 5.9o lorhs.
haiix. sad sia. quite ex.
den ii dun wan buy fer myself. hehex.
went to studii at airport wid ting n poo.
hahax
furnii lorhs
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dunno whether wan to buy nort.
SHIT lohs. maths i got one mistake liaox.
how to get full marks liddat. kns lahhs.
i'm so cock eye..carless.
no wonderr my name starts wid C.
LoLx. siann le lahhs.
tmr got chem n fnn. die le lahhs.
all my paper not gud lorhs.shit.
PENNY.tmr your b dae.. happy birthday`!
hehex.
buh byee`
shud ii buy dat staRr sTaRr thingiee??

Tuesday, August 16, 2005 Y

7:12 PM

here to blogg.
amaths was dissapoointinn lahhs. haiix.
nvmm.
ytd went airport to studii.
wid ting n poo`
managed to do work.yippie.
unlike dat 2. opps.
thanx poo fer dah fotoo.hehex.
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i todae tio suan frm everyone lo
hahax. n he lky didnt mind at all
hahax. hmmm. yars. *shy*

i did this.hehehex.

this ish me.

peek-a-boo!

my neww mP3.

Sunday, August 14, 2005 Y

3:54 PM

My DIGITAL Life

i got my. .

nokia 6170

b dae: 22 april 05

canon ixus 40 [ getin fixed]

b dae: novemeber 04

zen micro 20G

bdae: 13 aug 05

computerr

b bae: dunno*

Saturday, August 13, 2005 Y

2:40 PM

so siann.
made this blogg. yars.
tired of studiin lahhs. siian lahhs.
haiix. wadevaa lahhs.
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i SHUD b gettin my zen MICRO
either today or tmr. hehex.yuPx.
buh byee` time to studii lerhs.

Friday, August 12, 2005 Y

8:23 PM

you've got a fren in me-toy storiee
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you've a got a fren in me
when the road looks rough ahead
and u're miles n miles frm ur nice warm bed
u jux rmb wad u walked last night
fer u got a fren in me
yea u got a fren in me
`
u got a fren in me
u got a fren in me
if u got troubles
i got them too
dat has anything dat i wudnt do
fer u
we'll stick together n we'll see it thru
coxe u got a fren in me
`
some other folks maybe a little smarter den i m
bigger n strong too
none of them wud ever love u the way i do
its me n you
as the yrs goes by
our frenship wud nv die
u gonna see inside destiny
u'ver got a fren in me

6:43 PM

hmmm. today ahhs.
actualli got nth to say lahhs.
chinese. gort one word. DIE liaox.
haiix. siao lorhs.
we nort frm some chi-na chi-na countri lo
we frm SPORE. okk.goshh.
`
da road is up to u to chose lerrhs.
i dun wanna toke abt it lerhs.
u cant have da best of 2 worlds.
Tc everyonee.
`
o7 moree days to let out a sigh.
hahax. opps. bad englang used.
muahaha. oh well. hu cares. hahax.

6:36 PM

this entriee was fer ytd dex.

[11.08.2005]

ytd no mood onlinee.hehex.

yippie my geo scored 20/25

hehex. den dat alicia howLian lahhs

hahax.opps.=x.jkin.

den ahboii lamed me. hahax.

den me marisher.regu.najib.shaz n ah boii

toke cok down dere hahax.

den marisher sabo-ed me den

regu n ah boii look at me. paiseh lorhs.

den slackk at d.n.t dere

actualli go airport studii de.

den it RAINN. tian ahhs. haha

den had englishh exam.

siao lorhs.

i'm an amaths student n not lit lorhs.

coomon lahhs. set da paper right lehhs.

it seems difficult lorhs. haiix.

`den went makan Ljs. wid wen n ting.

den me n wen bought this star ear stud.

big big de. hahax, funn its blue n yellow.

yuPx. hahax.

thanx wen fer da helpp.=]

Wednesday, August 10, 2005 Y

11:55 AM

my camera was missin frm da table.
which means. .
my mum went to repaiir it.hurray!!.
hahax. i dun lky to use ppl's camera lerhs. yeah`!!!
i cannt live without camera..
hehex. n i'm gonna.
save $$ to buy my mp3 playerr. hehex.
bleahs. hahax.
i got hp.
den camera
den mp3.
hehex.
my digital lifee`

Tuesday, August 09, 2005 Y

9:38 PM

cann anyonee understand

wad da pic is tryinn to say?

pictures tell a thousand words.

8:17 PM

I MISS MY NDP DAYS`!!!!
I WANNA PARTICIPATE AGAIN.
so manii momeries sia. haiix.
felt lky cryinn lorhs. haha.
NDP 2oo3 rox to da core lorhs.
miss ndp
miss ndp
miss ndp
n i still missin ndp`!
da hardship we done thru
fer at least 7 months. hahax.
da badge, certificate,square unberlla n MOMERIES
is all i left to remind me abt ndp`!

Monday, August 08, 2005 Y

6:14 PM

^{i seen herr true colourrs.
too bad fer herr.
betrayed my trust.
used to trust even others are influecninn me
u say u change. but i see a change.no.
i neo dat rome cannort b build in a day
n so ur character.
do u even try?? i dunn think so.
contridictinn myself.}
~~^{mo ni zi ji de liang xing}~~

3:43 PM

recieved my rc award.hehex.
alicia wad was it called??
i forgort lerhs. its sth dat can stand dex.
den went to tamp mart to eat mac wid alicia n jiaweii
hmmmm.. we made lots of comments along da way.
`
alicia:
welcomee. i neo i'm ur persona consultant.
i'll send da bill maybe 3 days later??
hahahax. jkin. its FOC dex. yuPx.
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jiaweii:
i've done it`!!!!!!
hehe. but onli one side nia.
verii scary lorhs.
when wid ting.den she freaked out.
u dare mahhs?? hahax.
waitin fer ur turn.
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ting:
dunn freak out horx.
waitinn to see ur turn.hehex.
den i go tamp .
when i was waitin for her to board da bus.
i cant see her lorhs. haha.
den was wondering which ah ma sittin in front.
opppx.hehex.=x
den we walk till tired lerhs.hahax.
rmb wad ii told yars``
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den dat personn shoot without warning de lorhs.
humPx.
neh dat personn. hahax.
i miss my ndp days`!!
`
nehneh i wanting fer my pics.
hehex.
i so famous.took pic wid manii ppl
actualli 3 ppl nia.hahax.
hmmm..quickquick.cant wait.

Sunday, August 07, 2005 Y

12:10 PM

hey U.
valinna girl.
tc aitee.
nehneh luvs ya`.
haa.study hard.`

11:25 AM

this is my 272 post.
hehex. hmmm..
new blogg rites?? hehex.
i took da back ground n actualli

edit abit. hehe. =].

man. i'm gud at it. hehex.lol.
no mood to studii.
heyy ppl. i dunno y
nowadays i dun realli ans calls.
AND pls ddun call my house
UNLESS its an emergenciee okk?
jux no mood. hehex.
`
No puedo dejar de pensar de en ti

Saturday, August 06, 2005 Y

9:18 PM

if u were to look into my eyes
would u see wads inside?
would youu even bother to care?
`
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti

3:46 PM

hmm. went fer speech day. yuPx.
my cadets ahhs. goshh.
all wanna use this red colour tape to
tie my legs n hands n my mouth.
haha.
dunno y i today toke alort of stuffs.
hahax. lol. dats miee. mad.crazii.
`
i'm goin to get my foot drill SLIVER
after my Ns. sho... this make me
special in dmn rcy. heehx.
noone ever take this.
n i'm so gonna pass.`!!
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played guitarr.
kept playin da wrong note. humPx.
`
wrong tune= pissed/fustrated
play guitarr[long period of time]= sad
play perfectlii= happiee.
anyhow play= CRAZii
dun play= Lazii
`
keep everything to myself betta.
this wud make me believe in myself
make me be independent. yea.
yi ge ren shen huo.
shao le ni mei shen mo fen bie

Friday, August 05, 2005 Y

10:30 PM

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonderr wad u r.
up above the world so high
lky a diamond in the skyy.
`
how ii wiish i can b a sTar.
so innocent. so dan chun.
life's anit faiir.
life's juxt too complicated.
`
Farhan!!!!!!!!!!!!
lamed me lorhs.
goshh.
`
its gonna rainn heavily tonite.
in my room.
i believe in myself..
ting* u're right.=)

9:18 PM

guess wad. .

i'm . .

spore's futuree

psychiatrist

tokinn to mdm salha was funn hahax.
pearl`!!u sabo-ed miee lorhs.
humPx. haha. LoL. nvmm .
hehex. LoLx

5:45 PM

today gort talk by Tjc ppl.
dey gort tennis n guitarr. yuPx.
BUT cut off point is 7 lehhs.
da toke was inspirinn.
killinn me sia. hmmm. i'll work hard
no matter wad. yea.
but i still lky mJc. hehex.
`
heyy. frahann. u ahhs.
make me come down tmr. humPx.
i dun feel lky lorhs. humPx.
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come home den slp lerhs.
mux pay backk my past few days
lackk of slp sia. yars.
`
u seemed sincere. but. . haiix
u ask me such ques.
reallii very diff fer me to ans.
aiyoo0o0o.
`
backk to studii. buaiz
tata~

Thursday, August 04, 2005 Y

9:26 PM

decided to change blogg
coxe. . its full of STARs
hehex. although its yellow
nice wad. haha. LoL.
i love sTars. hehex.
da midi ish i find de
matchinn matchinn horx.
i have gud taste.
*thick skin*

5:01 PM

i'm backk here once agn`
hmmm. ah-boii verii furni
he lame sia. hahax. LoL.
he actualli 'sabo' me in ss klass
tian ahhs. den he was playinn mirror
reflectionn todae in klass. goshh.
`
haiix. i jux cant put things down.
dats da prob wid me
how i wiish my heart is made up
of metal. but it seems to be
broken too mani times. after
lessons learnt,its still liddat
`
i'm mentally n physically tired.
i needa breakk.
dreaminnofyouu.

6:21 AM

no time to entertainn childish ppl.
da world is nort urs. u see me nort
happie is u f off k. dun think
da world is urs
`
ookk. enuff lerhs. hahax. he msged
me last nie. hehex. haha.
hahahehehoho. goshh. hahax.
anywae gud to one n all.`!
todays a brand new day.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005 Y

10:53 PM

yoo`

i'm backk. yea`!

i got my ex-co cca points.yea.

hahax. lol. thanx ting.

wad u said realli made me feel betta.

haha. =).

haiix. some how felt unsafe. hahax.LoL

todae gort nite studii. yuPx.

b4 dat went to eat Ljs.

ting:

dun wry so muchh kkx?

he dun wan y den i

take u okie?

u belongg to me. hahax

BUT i LOVE guys`!! LoLx.

poo:

gai fang jiu fang ok?

such thinggs is liddat de

treat everything as momeries.

stiu can be friends de. yuPx.

BUT follow ur heart kkx.?

is:

hmmm. u did nth wrong gal.

u did da right thing.

dun sad okies?? cheer up gaL.

i learnt thing from da night studiee.

no bad ehhs, haha.LoLx.

i'm supposed to pay tribute to the rock star.

goshh. farhan. u lamed me lorhs. hahax. LoLx.

anywae thanx fer da lame jokes. haha

it helped me to relieve stress.

suprised dat she will msg me.

hahax. LoL.*wide smile*

goin to get sickk soon.haiix.

tired lahhs.

Monday, August 01, 2005 Y

6:27 PM

was so happie
regu send me ah-boii's pic.
he was doin sth stupid. yars.
haha dat realli made me smile.
we have to learn how to love studies
sound crazii BUT gort use okies. hahax.
hmmm. .
my DEAR CADETS i found out dat u all
read my blog n can score full marks
if i were to test u all lehhs.
hahax. i'm so honoured
dat my cadets r so into my life esp on
relationnshipp wan. goshh.
*thick sined*
u urself say one thing do anything wad
if u cant do wad i cant den dun pin point
me. coxe u dun have da rights.
i dun caree lerhs.yars.
go la go la. leave on wid ur own lifee lahhs.
we shall stop as as wadeva ship ship we have.
yars. gud fer u n me. yeas.
thing come n go. yesh`!
dats it. dats wad i wanna say.
is it love?
is dere sTh in da aiir?
is it love?
when i'm feelin my life ain't fair
is it love when u have to let u go?
godspeed
it doesnt take much to cry
loneliness found me.
n it haven leave since then
y m i left behind