mylife.mystory

Monday, August 22, 2005 Y

4:30 PM

Getting back my prelim test papers one after another. My eyes filled with tears, I didn't know why I would have achieved such atrocious results. The results are unexpected and dissapointed, I did not know where I went wrong. Guess this is a BIG lesson to learn for me.
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What are friends for? Everyone should know what are friends for, but have you all ever wondered if u all meet an expectations of being a friend? If you were to ask me if i have a best/true friend, I would say NO. Yes i have a lot of friends,but they don't play an important role in my life. They don't encourage me in my studies. They don't understand what i'm thinking. AND worst of all, they don't even understand me. Today, i found out that noone understood why I brokedown in class. *sigh*I guess that i'm better off alone. Just that i'm short of the laughter we used to have and feelings to share. Thats all. What for tell people your secrets and they do something which betrayed you.*LOL*do you call these people friend?
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The higher i go the easier i'll fall. Since i've fall this time. I stand up and face reality. I'm sure that i can achieve my dreams and hold it tight. I would never want to fall again because its too painful to go through. I hurt badly from this fall, and i will countinue to build up my confidence, I'll never let the past destroy what comes tomorrow. I'll learn my mistake and improve myself. you'll all see a new charlene. This i asure you.
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i would like to be alone. Thanx for those who made concern.